Mom...

Mom, tonight I am crying...I am so sad, accepting a text message from you..
A brief message, but means so important for me...
A brief message, showing your unfaithfulness to me...your own son...
A brief message that could be everything for me...
why it's so hard convincing you that I love you, I do!
As if I am that ignorant, as if I am that bad in front of you..
did I really make you sad?!
if yes, I am so sorry for that...
but, I hope for the next, I will never meet such thing...
please mom, believe me! I love you sincerely...from my deepest heart...
if you don't believe me, who'll believe me then?!
(T,T)
I am in grief

When I Saw You

For you, that I don't know what's your name, for you, that I even don't know who you are actually, for you, that I really want to know..and I really want to love...or at least, I really want to be closer...

Soft heavenly eyes gazed into me
Transcending space and time
And I was rendered still
There were no words for me to find at all
As I stood there beside myself
I could see you and no-one else

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe
I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be
I'd never be the same

Only once in a lifetime love rushes in
Changing you with a tide
And dawn's ribbon of light
Bursts through the dark
Wakening you inside
And I thought it was all untrue
Until there, all at once, I knew

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe
I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be
I'd never be the same

With no beginning
And without an end
You are the one for me
And it's evident
And your eyes told me so
Your eyes let me know

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe
I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I'd never be
I'd never be the same
I'd never be the same

this song is dedicated for you...to show how amazing you are, how mesmerizing you are...for me..

kamu...

aku tak mengenalmu, kita hanya saling pandang saat berpapasan...
sebelum2nya tak pernah sekalipun ku mempedulikanmu, tapi tidak sampai malam itu...
sekarang, setiap aku berjalan, yang ku harapkan hanya satu..berpapasan denganmu..
dan merasakan detak jantungku yang semakin kencang.. merasakan darahku mengalir lebih cepat

sungguh, ingin aku mengenalmu...namamu, tempat tinggalmu, semua tentangmu aku ingin tahu
sungguh, ingin aku tersenyum menyapa, dan berbincang sejenak denganmu, dan bahagia
meski sekedar say hi, meski cuma bertegur sapa..
itu rasanya cukup mengobatiku, itu cukup bagiku

kamu sudah mencuri hati ini, dan membawaku terbang melayang tinggi
saat mataku dan matamu bertemu, dan itu membuka segalanya....
kamu mengalihkanku, dari luka dan membawanya pada bahagia...

remembering the night when we met...

kemarin, aku liat kamu, meski kita tak saling mengenal , tapi kita sering beradu pandang, dan aku yakin, kau pun merasakan getaran yang sama saat kita bertemu mata..
aku menatapmu lama, tak bergeming, kali ini ku beranikan diri, tuk tak berpaling, seperti yang biasa aku lakukan..kamu melihat ke arahku, sebentar, kemudian mengalihkan pandangan, tapi tak lama...sejurus kemudian, matamu kembali melihat ke arahku...dan aku masih terus menatapmu..kali ini benar2 aku coba tuk lebih berani, tak sanggup aku terus begini...
mudah2an suatu hari, Tuhan kan pertemukan kita lagi, di suatu kesempatan yang indah, di suatu masa yang akan datang...
aku menyukaimu, dari semenjak pertama kita saling melihat,,,aku masih ingat dengan jelas saat kita bertemu mata tuk pertama kalinya, dan aku hanya menunduk malu tak lama setelah itu...
dan sering sesudah itu kita bertemu, berpapasan, namun, tak pernah ada kata perkenalan..hanya ada mata yang saling beradu pandang...
Oh Tuhan...I wish I know you...may be it will be easier for me....

-I love the way you look at me...